Soon to be an eight-part docuseries on HBO called The Vow (2020), with Sarah as one of the six former NXIVM members. In 2005, Sarah Edmondson was a young actress getting her start in Vancouver. When NXIVM, a personal and professional development company, promised to provide her the tools and insight to reach her potential, Sarah was intrigued. She would go on to become one of the cult's most faithful devotees, enrolling over 2,000 people over 12 years. In this tell-all memoir, complete with personal photographs, Sarah shares her true story from the moment she takes her first NXIVM seminar, revealing in-depth details of her time as a member. This is a true story about abuses of power, the role female friendships play in cults, and how sometimes the search to be "better" can override everything else.