How to find an outlet for a love that demands expression? Single, in her mid-forties and having experienced a sudden early menopause, the realisation comes to Peggy quietly, and clearly; she decides to adopt a child. But the preparation is arduous and the scrutiny is intense. There are questions about past lives, about her own childhood, heritage, capabilities, expectations and identity. This is a book about what makes a mother, and a home; how the legacies of childhood may impact on the experience of parenting; and how the pervasive nature of childhood trauma might be faced by a mother’s determination to love.