Stephanie Grisham assumed top positions in the administration as White House press secretary and communications director, and First Lady Melania Trump’s communications director and eventually chief of staff. This is a White House memoir written by someone no longer bound by the codes of spin, denial, and twisted loyalty that the Trump administration imposed. Here is a brutally honest and frequently funny look behind the scenes of a White House that was in turmoil from day one. It is also a personal reckoning from someone who was a true believer, tracing her dawning awareness of how the administration began to lose sight of its mission—serving the people—in its constant battles with the press and other politicians and in the unending internal drama that consumed Trump, his family, and his advisors. It is also about loyalty and family, learning and screwing up, proud moments and monumental regrets, narcissism and humility, love and heartbreak, friendships and loss, and, of course, falling down and trying your damnedest to get back up.